Rather Be

by Brittany Myers

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Hassles Brittany's voice is wonderful, her vocal style is equally wonderful accompanied by a diverse array of oft sombre or sparse musical arrangements (courtesy of Hicks Canyon Band) within the realms of contemporary / indie / indie folk with "blurred borders". Often moody, this material will both impress and carry you away.
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First full length album funded with the help of Kickstarter. And the Hicks Canyon Band!

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released June 23, 2014

All songs written by Brittany Myers. Copyright 2014.
All songs performed by Brittany Myers and the Hicks Canyon Band

Guitar/vocals - Brittany Myers
Guitar/vocals/piano - Spencer Hannemann
Guitar/vocals/piano/organ/bass - Jonathan O'Brien
Guitar/bass/piano - Brandon Osorio
Drums/percussion/vibraphone - Alex Teubert
Violin - Nehemiah Chen

Mixed and produced by Jonathan O'Brien at the Music Box Studios in Tustin, CA

Mastered by Michael Fossenkemper at Turtle Tone Studios in Manhattan, NY

Art and design by Brittany Arita

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Track Name: Manchester and Sepulveda
Standing on the corner of Manchester,
I hear your tears fall louder as you convince yourself to go
Thought I warned you this could be a problem
Don’t seem to want what I have after I beat it to the ground

You have begged me to take you higher
And I’ve only low places that I like to call my own

This is what I told you would happen
Isn’t this what I said I’d do?
And if you knew just what you were getting yourself into
Why do I feel like the devil to you?
Why do I feel like the devil to you?

Shuffling my steps I leave you behind
Never meant me to feel like this but I guess you don’t mind
That bite cut deep straight through the flesh
Held you bleeding on my shoulder while you cried “give it a rest!”

I have begged you, “just give me a reason”
But you’re too damn stubborn and too damn lonely to care

This is what you told me would happen
Isn’t this what you said you’d do?
And if I knew just what I was getting myself into
Why do I feel like a disease to you?
Why do I feel like a disease to you?

This is what we knew would happen
Isn’t this what we said we’d do?
And if we knew just what we were getting ourselves into
Why do we hurt as much as we do?
Why do we hurt as much as we do?
Track Name: Rather Be
Never felt more alone in a city of strangers
Shuffling my steps trying to be somebody new
My shadow gets so lonely it keeps begging for some company
Of past familiar faces and a father I once knew

So if you find my battling my grief
Or if you see me falling to my knees
Or if you notice me trying not to say “I was wrong”
Darling I’ve got no fight left in me
Darling I’ve got no fight left in me

Drinking so much whiskey can’t remember when I was sober
Got no one to keep me warm except the feeling of this bottle
Keep my mind off things I miss like the family I can’t grab hold of
Carry on further down the tracks hoping this will soon be over

So if you find my battling my grief
Or if you see me falling to my knees
Or if you notice me trying not to say “I was wrong”
Darling I’ve got no fight left in me
Darling I’ve got no fight left in me

So maybe I’ll be wrestling my grief
And sure I might fall to my knees
And maybe I’ll start to think that this was all wrong
Cause darling you’re right where I’d rather be
You’re right where I’d rather be
Track Name: First Degree
I was lying on your bed
You were slipping on your shoes
And I swore to god that this would be the end
Well my father ain’t no preacher
I wasn’t raised up in a church
But if there’s a hell that’s where I’m headed

I should’ve known better than that
I shouldn’t have knocked upon your door
Now here I lie bleeding on these cheap bed sheets
Wishing I could take it back

I was crawling on my knees
Begging you to leave her side
But you didn’t even glance in my direction
They say you hurt the ones you love
But doesn’t murder seem too much?
Cause now I’m dragging my own body to the grave

I should’ve known better than that
I shouldn’t have wasted all that time
Now here I lie bleeding on these cheap bed sheets
Wishing I could take it back

I was lying on your bed
You were slipping off your shoes
I knew just what I was getting myself into
Track Name: Guilty
Pull at my skin
Make me feel something more than what I’m stuck in
Tear out the lonely
Take me to bed
Not the kind I’m used to but the kind that makes me forget
The one I left

I’m tired of living so thoughtlessly
Every step that I take leaves a crime scene
And I’m the only guilty one
I’m the only guilty one
Am I the only guilty one?

Turn down the bed
Pull the covers round tight, don’t forget the lights
I’d rather not see this happen
I’ll wash off my sins
Guess I feel more alive the faster I’m drowning
In what I wish I never did

I’m tired of living so recklessly
Every step I retrace is a crime scene
And I’m the only guilty one
I’m the only guilty one
Am I the only guilty one?
Track Name: Many Will Enter
You’re coming in late now
Honey what’d you think I’d say?
You’re wearing that smile
Like a lie drawn across your face
I can hear you when you’re crying
Thinking I’m not awake
I can see your light is dying
Brace yourself another day

And you say
“It won’t let me be, it’s gonna find me,
Oh now can’t you see it looks just like me
It’s in my bones.”

The tables they’ve been turning
This ain’t a place you want to stay
Don’t want to find you with a lighter
Throwing gasoline in your way
Your breath smells of cigarettes
I know you weren’t where you say
You can lock it up or write it off
But that won’t make it go away

And you say
“It won’t let me be, it’s gonna find me,
Oh now can’t you see it looks just like me
It’s in my bones.”

Oh oh oh oh oh it’s got a hold of you
Oh oh oh oh oh there’s nothing I can do
It’s in your bones

And you say
“It won’t let me be, it’s gonna find me,
Oh now can’t you see it looks just like me
It’s in my bones.”
Track Name: Bluebird
I’ve got too much on my mind
To keep these folks from hearing
Burning the midnight oil
Wax melting from the ceiling
How do I get to where I’m going
If I’m stuck right where I’m at?
How do I get to where I’m going
If I can barely handle that?

There’s a bluebird down inside of me
And he’s dying to get out
There’s a bluebird down inside of me
But I push him down

These prison walls are barren and untrue
The bars they grow with time
And it’s hard to keep me breathing
When my sentence is for life
So lock me in the gallows
Let the darkness sleep by me
And those demons in the corner
Can drain these broken wings

There’s a bluebird down inside of me
And he’s dying to get out
There’s a bluebird down inside of me
But I push him down
Track Name: Eye for an Eye
Throw down the gauntlet
Your torch has long burnt out
Hide all you demons
Before the devil knows I’m dead
Bury my body
Somewhere it won’t haunt you
Leave me dead roses
Just to save the passing time

But this water won’t turn to wine
The ocean won’t divide
Yet you say “darling, an eye for an eye”

Tear out the sutures
Rip the ghost right out of you
Bleeding on the pavement
Revenge controls your mind
Reflection in the mirror
Your father stares back at you
Swore you wouldn’t be him
My god what have you done
What have you done?

But this water won’t turn to wine
The ocean won’t divide
Yet you say “darling, an eye for an eye”
Track Name: Wanderer
I’ve been staring down this barrel
Trying to find the answer near the bottom
I’ve been walking down the interstate
Throwing myself at the cars
And I’ve tried breathing above water
If only these fishbowl dreams would let me
I’ve been rolling in the bed of too many strangers
Pretending I’m a ghost of what they really need

But I’m a tourist in my own home
I’m a vagabond with nowhere to go
I’m a gypsy traveling these empty streets
Trying to find somewhere to rest my feet
I’m a wanderer

I’ve gotten so good at forgetting my past
But the future is nipping at my toes
And it seems that the second my feet touch new ground they’re running
Running from the regrets that are two steps behind
I’ve been waking from these nightmares
Clutching my fists and screaming for my life
I’ve been making the same mistakes over and over
Thinking maybe this time it will be what I need

But I’m a tourist in my own home
I’m a vagabond with nowhere to go
I’m a gypsy traveling these empty streets
Trying to find somewhere to rest my feet
I’m a wanderer
Track Name: Can't Stand
Dishes in the sink, old coffee in the pot
You’re yelling my name from our bedroom
“Where’d you put the keys, did you take out the dog?”
I can’t stand the sound of your voice at all
I read the paper, you get bored
I try to talk, you interrupt
Honey let’s address the issue
I kiss your cheek, you pull away
I call him up, you call her babe
Maybe we should just admit that

We aren’t happy anymore

The covers pulled down low, you’re wearing old gym clothes
When’s the last time that we did it?
I sleep out on the couch, until your lights go out
The tv holds me closer than you could
I play a song, you act annoyed
You buy me flowers, then they die
We can’t even keep a plant alive
I saw her name inside your phone
You saw his pictures I am sure
Let’s not act oblivious when

We aren’t happy anymore

It’s been so long, I can’t stop loving you
It’s been so long, I’ve fallen out

Now I can’t stand you anymore
No I can’t stand you anymore
Track Name: Well Wisher
Throw me down the well
To fight for the coins that I once threw
The pennies always seem to add up
But the wishes never do
Maybe I will find that breathing is much easier without you
Or maybe I will find that I only know myself when I’m around you

So I’ll call you when I get there
But I won’t be looking back
No I won’t be looking back
So I’ll call you when I get there
But I’m never coming back

It’s been so long now
That you’ve held me in your sunshine arms
But I’ve been stuck there for so long
The body I’m inside can’t feel no one
Maybe I will find that the trees are much greener without you
Or maybe I will find there’s no reason to exist if I don’t have you

So I’ll call you when I get there
But I won’t be looking back
No I won’t be looking back
So I’ll call you when I get there
But I’m never coming back

So I’ll call you, or I’ll write you
And I’ll tell you how I miss you
And I’ll lie to you, if you ask me to
And I’ll tell you that I’ll come back to you

So I’ll call you when I get there
But I won’t be looking back
No I won’t be looking back
So I’ll call you when I get there
But I’m never coming back
Track Name: Noah
I guess that it’s Tuesday
I’ll try not to call you
When you’re not alone
I’ve got a lot for sale
But nobody’s buying
The cheap love I sell
The shop on the corner
Stays open past midnight
I’ll find my friends there
Buschmills in a bottle
A cheap smoke or vodka
Anything not to care
Anything not to

I once had hope but it drowned in that old flood
Begged Noah to pick me up
He said “You’re not one of us,
We’re leaving you behind”

Now that it’s Wednesday
My head’s kind of blurry
What did I say?
These moments of weakness
I try not to call you
But we all make mistakes
Maybe if I just leave here
I’ll start my life over
Where no one knows my name
But even the rain pouring down on this mountain
Won’t cleanse me of you today

I once had hope but it drowned in that old flood
Begged Noah to pick me up
He said “You’re not one of us,
We’re leaving you behind”
Track Name: Golden One
I threw a whisper into the wind
Hoping it would find its way home
It took up shape into someone
That I did hardly know
Where’d you go my wayward friend?
I’ve been searching for your ghost
In the hills where you ran
With the wind in your hair

So long my golden one
So long weary love
So long lonesome
I’ll see you again

I sing your name on every corner
Hoping not to forget it
Your memories are restless dreams
Struggling, fighting to breathe
So travel fast and make it quick
I don’t want to feel the pain
That comes with leaving and losing you
All over again

So long my golden one
So long weary love
So long lonesome
I’ll see you again